When I do, I do it gradually
One drop at a time. So minor, smooth, discreet
A small unnoticeable particle
Sliding down my soft brown cheek.
From time to time I let it out
Too emotional to speak
Deep in my belly there’s a rupture
Finally I’ve sprung a leak.
Trying to keep my composure
Because its so important to me
Quietly I hide away
In hopes to contain my misery.
Its hopeless! I realize as I convulse,
In pain, I shake and my heart aches.
I try to hide my blood shot eyes.
My legs tremble and my heart breaks.
Secretly I wonder; will it ever cease?
But the truth of the matter is
I need this sweet release.
The pain, the joy, the excitement, the sadness
the love, the hate, the grief, the gladness
A rolling wave of relief
With an undercurrent of pain
There’s so much to lose
Yet much more to gain.
Bio: Antoinette, a single mother and California native has been in love with poetry and literature since she was very young. She draws from life experiences to fuel her passion for writing. She will have several bodies of work published in the near future and is also an upcoming plus model.